Heart in My Hate lyrics

[Hook]
Questionin' myself, is it true that this the man that I have to be
It’s actually taxin' me
Cannot keep it stealth, cause I’m tryna turn my misery to masterpiece
Lemme actually craft a piece
f*ckin up my health, I’m running cause I feel like people after me
Selfish always lacked apathy
Wallow in my welts, too cowardly to climb up out the trap of me
Just let the sh*t keep happening

[Verse 1]
Beat me bruise me kill me f*ck it know you want me dead
Go ahead who gone stop you nobody leavе me red
Leavе me out to dry you ain’t see it when I bled
Self important but that don’t make me incorrect
Questioning my character, questioning my intellect
Questioning the man I am, questions brewing in my head
Am i who I think I am, questioning the things I said
Questions gotta ask myself so I can be a better man

[Bridge]
I’m not who I think I am
I don’t think I’m who I am
I’m not who I think I am
I don’t think I’m who I am
[Verse 2]
I know my self obsession leaves me easy target
Look what I started, all these exes and ex-friends
Neatly nestled in my head, pulling on the strained strings
Reaching for the clouds just to drown in what the rain brings
Loved ones sprint far like I don’t need em
I can’t be my brothers keeper if I cannot even keep him
Is it a product of my disposition or that n*ggas they be sneakin'
Troubled searching for the reason
You ever a bunch of friends sit you down
And tell you what they hate about you
And that they don’t wanna be around you
I can still feel them pins in my skin
Especially when I'd a died for them kin
Lost between faults, rock and a hard place
Missouri and Michigan no home I’m displaced
Blood brewin' with rage, this regret in my face
I got hate in my heart but it’s heart in my hate