Dissociation lyrics

[Intro: Backxwash]
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[Verse 1: Backxwash]
I thought I told you that I'm off drugs
This time I'ma be for real
This time I'ma keep it trill
'Cause lies can get people killed
But I'm tryna wind
Could you find me a decent seal
If we split the bill
We could split it still
I know I owe you from last time
But I'm on my last dime
And I got you next if that's fine
Don't mean to be dramatic but this sh*t is a lifeline
I don't think I'm an addict, I'm just really unhappy
Everything on the planet is just speeding right past me
And I blink as the havoc is as real as it's nasty
Pour a drink for the habits to the sink as I'm gagging
I don't think of the damage or how I heave when I'm laughing
I never thought that I'd be f*cked like this
I'm on the cold floor, never felt a hug like this
And to this drink of vodka I got one last wish
It's rest in peace to this beautiful son of a b*tch
[Chorus: Chloe Hotline]
Disjoin, divide
To shield my mind
The noises I'll acknowledge
Just to push them outside
I got beside myself
Played how the hand was dealt
I got beside myself
And tried not to worsen
The view in third person

[Sampled Interlude]
There's a few straight male flight attendants and I don't like 'em!
They don't care about anything but their manhood
Y'know, it's like "How do you work the oxygen mask?
I'm not gay! Okay?"

[Verse 2: Backxwash]
I started running as shadows started to chase me
I had to pick up the pace and fix up my laces
And then
I saw the sun that lit up the pavement
And I saw your face in the grace and it was amazing, check it
Is this a daydream or dissociation?
That embrace feels like heaven waiting
No need for seditation
Though I've been cursed with my many ailments
I feel grateful for your presence
I feel grateful for your patience
And time was ticking and I was dead in the hole
Drenched in the soil water
Dead even 'fore I got up
Take me lord
If it's all
Set in stone
Please no more
I give up
Yes, you win
Less is more
I am yours
Heard the call
From the doldrums
Like a bell in a storm
As we sailed in the boat
To the place that we are
We remain as we are
And we cherish the thought
Of just us
It's just us
Anywhere that we are
[Outro: Chloe Hotline]
They'd rather you stay square
Just to fit in your plans but I
Never would, I'm too parallelogram, I
Fighting the settings and this the last stand, I
Withdrew myself, it was all in advance, I—
The more you know about yourself, the better
Rewrite your history before you lose that feather
Figure it out, figure it out
The shield ain't all the way down
All the way down
Figure it out, figure it out
Figure it out, figure it out
The shield ain't all the way down
All the way down
And it won't cost when it count
Cost when it counts
And I'm starting to feel like I'm back in control
And I start to feel like I'm past this road
And I'm starting to feel like I'm back in control
And I start to feel like I'm past this road
And I'm starting to feel like I'm back in control