A message to My girlfriend/Letter lyrics

[Verse]
I have Retroactive jealousy, that sh*t has been killing me every time you kiss me, make love, it kills insecurities, tryna be a better man to please you with my benefits, knowing that I found out you was never innocent, cause you look cute and deserve all the benefits of a good n*gga, since summer school i been trying to f*ck with you, not letting my pride and my ego tryna f*ck with us, thinking bout your past so deeply got me f*cked up wished I could’ve saved you but I wasn’t never there, I was dealing with some sh*t of my own

[Verse 2]
On my ass like a P.O. Officer Like
Why you ain’t home, thinking bout like
How they made you feel made me turn off my phone, I should’ve saved you when I had chance, ain’t know you had a man, and now i love you I don’t understand, why you had to end up with the people who don’t understand you or your heart, or the things that you need, doing anything in my power so that you would be pleased, overpowered oral sex is the thing that you need, and your love and your heart can finally stop my retroactive jealousy,

[Verse 3]
Your curiousness is poison, but I can’t avoid it, knowing that I can break down crying and destroy sh*t, I will never judge you by your past just wished I was there first because my love was waiting on you, want to have a baby and a future with you and I know that I can afford it, I’m insecure and I’m sorry that’s why I cry a lot, gun shots popping, pus*y popping these n*ggas die a lot, hoping when I made you cry i wish your angels were there for to stop,

[Verse 4]
I promise I’m worth it, feeling guilty crying in my bed because I couldn’t be perfect to certain people, because these n*ggas and hoes gonna try to leach you, loosing blood I’m suicidal, hoping you wasn’t leaving, wished that i can listen I’m so obsessed and I’m in love with my girlfriend named Kiersten, cause to me she still innocent and her smile made her innocence knowing that she had loving potential and I couldn’t get rid of it, because she someone that I always wanted and I’m happy ass f*ck, she is the best thing that I got, and my heart filled up with luck, overthinking jealousy made me get on a highway and get hit by a truck and my love for my girlfriend will always stay stuck, telling my insecurities and my voices in my head to shut the f*ck up
My Retroactive Jealousy will never break us up I promise I can be better I love you.