Self Harm lyrics

[Verse 1: DeeKay]
When I was fourteen I met a bad b*tch
She taught me self harm, never wanna have this
I never met a b*tch so evil in my life
She told me sit down, I'll cut you with a knife
I see my wrists bleed
Didn’t think I would ever need help
Now I’m feeling at the bottom of the shelf
I pop a Xan just too keep intact
I see a tree and I pull up with the big belt
Big help, tummy tuck, b*tch
Feeling funny when I RIP in this b*tch
What about the bands?
What about the money?
What about the time you left me with nothing?

[Verse 2: DeeKay]
I got nothing in my life
I got nothing left to live for
Self harm hurts
But it kinda f*cking hurts more
When you got no one, living by yourself
Paying all the rent so I keep close to the belt

[Verse 3: suisside]
Thinking bout cutting myself (myself)
And I see no one else (no one else)
Look at it knife on the floor (on the floor)
Looking at the sky turns to grey now (grey now)
Am I gonna be missin' my friends now? (friends now?)
I'm not gonna be missing a thing now (thing now)
[Verse 4: DeeKay]
Self harm never hurt less
I’m at the end f*ck, yeah, I’m a big mess
Every girl I ever talked too hate me
She made me cry
Felt afraid so I'm counting up the days
That I got left in this world
So I now I gotta earn each day
'Cause one second one moment
It could all get taken away
With the slash of a knife feel the gut wrench pain
It’s the self harm way
That I do all this sh*t
Felt so afraid from the day that I left you
Never text you
But, b*tch, I never left you