Cry for Me, Die for Me lyrics

(Chorus)
Why won't you hold me
Cause things don't look so bright
Dont yell console me
Cause i been up all night

I need you to cry for me
Theres not to many that would die for me
I need you to cry for me
Theres not to many that would die for me
Yeah

(Verse 1)
Lately man i really been feeling hella cold and sh*t
Isolated and alone and sh*t
Still waiting on a call from you
But sh*ts not a move cause you don't exist
Mom died, I'm feeling old and sh*t
Its way to fast how i grown and sh*t
Got me feeling hella down, down
Tryna smoke a lot so i can cope with it
Im 24 ain't got a crib yet
Im 24 i ain't live yet
Im 24 and hella p*ssed i can't even thank my momma with a big cheque
Theres people living that got less than me
So i just try to think the best in these
Situations that be stressing me
So i don't act out to problems too aggressively
Put people really tryna push me
People really tryna brush me
Out the wrong way
On the wrong days
But i just know they hella pus*y
The other night i felt like ending sh*t
Got me calling up my ex and sh*t
Got me smoking cigarettes and sh*t
Alcohol got me confessing sh*t
Confessing things like
How Im mad afraid
Mad afraid that this will all fail
Telling Pat to get a normal job
Telling Dad that i ain't doing well
Telling Mom that i done met my days
My job got me hella sad and sh*t
Cause this supposed to be the sh*t i love
My job supposed to give me happiness
On days i dream about my mom screaming
Laying down tryna fight for life
Tears start run down my face
I sit and struggle tryna hide my eyes
Cause everybody think Im strong
Everybody think Im stainless steel
Everybody think Im made of metal
They don't get Im f*ckin' made of real
They don't get i done slaved for real
They don't see i had a major deal
They don't know that i slept on a couch
Tryna plot sh*t out, so i could make it here
Theres certain things that i want to say
But i don't know how they make you feel
They told me "Russ you were made for this"
So imma work and make a bill
(imma work and imma)
(Chorus)
Why won't you hold me
Cause things don't look so bright
Dont yell console me
Cause i been up all night

I need you to cry for me
Theres not to many that would die for me

(Outro)
I know you been waiting
I know you been patient

Alright check

I been contemplating
On leaving life
But you make me
Want to stay (want to stay)

And as this night goes on
I imagine me holding you close
Cause you're the one i trust the most
Tears fall on my shoulders
Tremble sometimes i get
So forgetful that you're always here
If not physically
Then through me
Rest easy, thank you