I Guess I’m Nothing lyrics

[$LOTHBOI]
I feel like an idiot
Like every single word that coming out my mouth is sh*t, lately

I ain't talking its a b*tch
Cuz every single word I'm just depressing all my friends, shaky

I ain't wanna face this
Demons in me got a lot of faces
Oh no no

Mental state is straight sh*t
Some days I ain't really think I'll make it
Oh no no

I know they wanna see me on a stage
But know that I am terrified when eyes are on my face

They say my music saved the day
But every single day I struggle with anxiety

I used to want my shoes yeah
But now I'm standing hеre and f*ck my head is still same

Thought it would'vе changed sh*t
But now I realize that happiness needs pain
[Rivilin]
Yeah so won't you tell me what do I mean to you
I guess I'm nothing I have a feeling I was used
Am I disgusting, sometimes we have to face the truth
I know I'm nothing, so you drain me out to be reused

You love to cut me down so you know I won't leave you
Until he comes back around and oh you love to say we're through
I wanna spit you out when will I learn the truth
I'm sick of screaming awake here's a big f*ck to you

Cus I am done with being on the low why you gotta hide me so
Like are you just embarrassed of me, I feel like I am nothing
I hear your ex-best friend talk about how much you're happier
That's f*cking unfair when you left everyone in the gutter

I guess it's time I moved on and just learned to f*cking grow
I know I hurt a lot of people on this path you sowed
For me and my best friend, didn't know what love really was
I can't just blame you for everything but the drugs were your fault

I felt like I was euthanized laying on the couch half alive
Stuck in a tunnel vision overthinking trapped in my mind
Makes me feel like I'm redundant never wanna be by my side
You woke me up at 2 am to watch your veins just collide
How do you think it makes me feel watching a suicide attempt
You know it f*cked my mental state you watching me with contempt
Like was this my f*cking fault I always tried my f*cking best
I knew I wasn't enough I took my chances and I left

Yeah so won't you tell me what do I mean to you
I guess I'm nothing I have a feeling I was used
Am I disgusting, sometimes we have to face the truth
I know I'm nothing, so you drain me out to be reused

You love to cut me down so you know I won't leave you
Until he comes back around and oh you love to say we're through
I wanna spit you out when will I learn the truth
I'm sick of screaming awake here's a big f*ck to you

[$LOTHBOI]
I feel like an idiot
Like every single word that coming out my mouth is sh*t, lately

I ain't talking its a b*tch
Cuz every single word I'm just depressing all my friends