​a love letter to colgan high school lyrics

[Verse 1]
I can't find an answer to my problems
Not a single therapist can solve 'em
I don't like to talk about my problems
I just like to make songs about 'em
Sitting on the floor with the razor
On the internet with some haters
Playin' music loud, f*ck the neighbors
Servin' up my time, like a waiter

[Verse 2]
I tried to make some friends and I'm trying to pretend
That I'm just another man, I am not some weird ass kid
That's not like the other kids, I just want to be myself, huh
I just want to be myself and not face a consequence
I don't care how you make fun, it'll still hurt my feelings
You just crack your silly jokes, never cared how I'm feeling
Yeah, karma is a b*tch, kiss my ass, I'm succeeding
You still stuck with basic friends that like football and eating
I better up my life, I try and I try
But I lie awake at night, and I cry, I cry
It's natural for me and I can't f*cking stop
But underneath those tears is—, uh, a one eyed cyclops? Okay
I-I don't remember writing this, I really don't

[Outro]
I've been lonely for some time
Sometimes I break down and I'll cry
And afterwards, I look up
To the sky and just ask, "Why?
Why do I gotta be like this?
Why is this small world so cold?
Oh, why the f*ck do I exist?" Oh