i just had an epiphany lyrics

[Intro]
Bloodhounds

[Verse]
Think I dug up my own grave
Just a hypocritic bast*rd, bite the bullet and be brave
I don't know how else to feel right now, I feel trapped in my brain
Heard that line a million times, but you'll hear it over again
I feel numb, but I feel happy, I don't know how else to feel
Waves of pleasure brushing over me, but it feels so surreal
I don't talk a lot, don't worry 'bout me, don't ask "What's the deal?"
Don't you try to put a smile on me, my face is f*cking still
All my music sounds the same
Come up with a different name
I won't take the f*cking blame
I won't take the f*cking blame
Try to be so civilized, but instead you wished I'd die
I've been there since like day one, you put a spear right through my eye
I can't feel, I'm f*cking dead
f*ck my eyes right through my head
Lay your blood all through the bed
I remember what you said
Said let you f*ck off and die
I let you do this this time
I'm so worried on you to this day, my paranoia climbs