Shoving Myself Away lyrics

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Look outside for better days
Why do I do? I shove away
Why do I shove myself away?
All this sh*t I didn't take
All this sh*t I didn't take
I'm smoking all myself away
Finding why I'm here today
Why did I go do that?
I can't look back, none of that
I swear I do this for the facts
I don't do this for couple of bucks
I can't shove myself away
I need to find a new escape
I'm highly annoyed, shoved away
I'm locking myself away
I don't even know what it takes
Here, immortal, ayy
Why do I even shove away?
I'm stuck here and cold
And I'm making up a wave, wave
I had no other route to take
I'm over, they look menacing
I don't even want to shove away
I'm losing my mind every day
Every f*cking hour, tryna see what's in store
I don't need it anymore (What's in store)
I've already had my share of times
I need plenty more
Can't go away, just scared
I need that better pitch or key
And I keep doing this to my brain cells
I swear I need one minute 'fore I blast down all the way to hell
I need some sunshine, of course, barely go outside anyway
Turn into a hermit over nothing, I swear they all are the same
Gotta protect what you got 'cause it's all you gonna get
I swear that this operation is the coldest one yet
I have no reason to suspect any bullsh*t effects
Before the recent fuss, I keep it, right their wrongs
In the way, just 'cause there's obstacles in the way
Just 'cause there's opps in the way
I do not count they say, they can say it in my face
I'll give them prolapses, my bad, that's awful to say
Tell b*tch, "I'm insecure," but all these other opps' fakes
I had a musical fuss, such as the ones whose pact
Pass down the f*cking torch
For all these lil' dorks to come forth
I had enough of waiting, I'm gonna take it all away
From you like I'm a parent 'cause I am