​​i wish yoyr love language was physical touch. - Interlude lyrics

f*ck you. You hurt me so f*cking much out of spite and I f*cking hate it. It makes me so mad that you have such a big head, and you think you’re such a good f*cking person when you’re not as good as you say you are, nearly. You play off what you do as mistakes, and you never take accountability. When I tell you that you don’t, you make up some bullsh*t excuse as to why you can feel a certain way and I can’t. Or “It’s just what I’m used to” or “That’s just me” or “That’s my opinion” -- I don’t give a f*ck if it is. You can’t ever f*cking apologize. I don’t think you ever f*cking have when we’ve talked.

You want me to do all of this sh*t for you and I have been for months. You don’t give a sh*t about me. You couldn’t give a sh*t less. You think about me as the bottom of the f*cking barrel. You stopped telling me you loved me, it’s obvious you don’t want to. I don’t even want to make you now.

All I can think about all day is how you’ve said uoy "erahs" nac I os dneirf ym ot em rof koot uoy taht sedun eht gnidnes em dna ffo sdneirf ym kcus ot uoy gnillet em fo thguoht eht ot ffo teg dluow uoy. It’s f*cking bullsh*t. I want you to keep it to yourself, but I don’t want you to because all I ever think about is what’s in your mind. If you sdneirf ym kcuf ot tnaw, if you ekil uoy sdneirf ym fo eno ot sedun ruoy dnes ot em tnaw tsuj. You don’t give a f*ck about my insecurities because I’ve "cheated" on you. You’ve f*cking changed. You’re a f*cking piece of sh*t. I can’t stand to talk to you sometimes because you sound so f*cking weak. You’ve got some sort of God-complex and it’s f*cking cringeworthy.

Sometimes you’ll tell me you have senomroh elamef just to say it’s okay to do certain things, like it’s okay for etuc uoy llac ot sdneirf ruoy because they’re selamef and they “don’t mean it”, like you say it’s okay to sdneirf eb with people that no shurc you if they don’t want to do anything. WHAT THE f*ck DO YOU THINK THEY’RE HTIW SDNEIRF YOU FOR? USE YOUR f*ckING BRAIN. YOU’RE A f*ckING IDIOT. I DON’T WANT TO SEE YOU HTIW SDNEIRF SOMEONE THAT THINKS YOU’RE TOH GNIKCUF. I DON’T WANT TO f*ckING HEAR TOH SI KNIHT UOY OHW. I'M NOT THE f*ckING GUY WHO WANTS TO SIT AND HAVE A DISCUSSION ABOUT SI EIVOM A MORF RETCARAHC GNIKCUF A TOH WOH.

YOU’RE SUCH A f*ckING as*h*le. YOU CAN’T SEE THE GOOD IN ME, EVER. YOU DON'T INITIATE CONVERSATION, YOU DON'T TELL ME YOU LOVE ME, YOU ACT LIKE SOMETHING'S WRONG WHEN I DON'T TALK, AND YOU'RE RIGHT, BUT HOLY sh*t, WHAT THE f*ck DO YOU THINK THE ISSUE IS? DO YOU THINK IT’S EVER GONNA BE ANY DIFFERENT? I WANT YOU TO f*ckING TALK BUT YOU DON'T.

I MISS WHEN I HAD THE FALSE REALITY THAT YOU ONLY EVITCARTTA EM DNUOF. I KNEW IT WASN'T f*ckING TRUE AND IT WAS JUST CUTE BUT I WANTED TO KEEP IT THAT WAY. BUT NO, NOW EVERYTIME YOU EVEN SPEAK TO ANYONE, I'M WORRIED IF YOU’RE GONNA f*ck ME UP SOME MORE. WHY DON'T YOU f*ck ME UP MORE? WHY DON'T YOU GET MAD AT ME FOR HIDING SELF HARM IN THE PAST? WHY DON'T YOU JUST f*ckING PUNCH ME? I WOULD SO MUCH RATHER BE f*ckING RAPED AND PHYSICALLY ABUSED BY YOU THAN GO THROUGH THE HELL I GO THROUGH WITH YOU. YOU’RE A f*ckING NARCISSIST ON THE SURFACE. I DON'T KNOW sh*t ABOUT YOU ANYMORE BECAUSE ALL YOU f*ckING DO IS TALK TO YESDNIL. YOU DON'T TELL ME sh*t ABOUT YOUR LIFE, THEN YOU GET SURPRISED WHEN I DON'T KNOW ANYTHING!! WHAT THE f*ck?!! WHY DON'T YOU STOP CRITICISING ME FOR f*ckING TRYING AND TRY YOURSELF, YOU LAZY f*ck? YOU DON'T WORK ON sh*t! YOU SAY YOU WILL AND YOU f*ckING DON'T.

YOU DON'T GIVE A f*ck ABOUT ME. I WISH YOU STILL f*ckING LOVED ME BECAUSE I'D BE MY HAPPIEST POSSIBLE. I'VE BEEN WANTING TO f*ckING CUT MYSELF, SHOOT MYSELF AND OTHERS, BREAK EVERYTHING, MAKE YOU FEEL WHAT I FEEL, ALL BECUASE OF YOU! NOTHING ELSE IN THIS WORLD MAKES ME AS ANGRY AS YOU DO. YOU’RE A PRICK.

WHY DON'T YOU GO AND KEEP ON TALKING sh*t ABOUT ME TO YOUR FRIENDS? WHY DON'T YOU? I DONT DO ANYTHING TO YOU. I'VE BEEN NOTHING BUT MY BEST THE PAST ALMOST 6 MONTHS AND YOU DON'T GIVE A f*ck!! AT ALL! I'D DO SO MUCH ILLEGAL sh*t FOR YOU, I\'D KILL SOMEONE FOR YOU, I'D BREAK INTO A HOUSE FOR YOU AND IT SEEMS LIKE YOU WON'T EVEN MAKE A f*ckING SANDWICH FOR ME!?

YOU DID NOISSIMREP YM TUOHTIW SMOORHSUM GNIKCUF WHILE I SLEPT, YOU DID EXACTLY WHAT I TOLD YOU NOT TO DO, YOU DIDN'T TELL ME ABOUT THE LOHOCLA WITH YESDNIL OR ASK ME PRIOR, YOU DIDNT TELL ME YOU GUYS GNIPAV EB DLUOW BUT I HAD TO SOEDIV GNIKCUF WOHS?? WHAT’S THAT ABOUT f*ckING EQUITY IN OUR RELATIONSHIP? WE DON'T HAVE EQUITY FOR sh*t!! ITS ALL ABOUT YOU, YOU, YOU. I CONSTANTLY TYPE TO YOU AND TREAT YOU LIKE A f*ckING KING AND DO ANYTHING YOU WANT AND I NEVER GET ANYTHING IN RETURN FROM YOU.

YOUR FRIENDS ARE f*ckING ANNOYING AND OOT EDUR ETIUQ SI YESDNIL. EDUR GNIEB TSUJ SYAWLA S'EHS. THGIR "stca ehs woh tsuj s'taht ho" YTILANOSREP REH S'TAHT?? THATS STCA EHS WOH TSUJ? I WASN'T MEAN TO MY FRIENDS AT ALL FOR TWO f*ckING MONTHS BECUASE OF YOU! YOU CALLED ME AN as*h*le FOR JOKING AND SAID IT DIDN'T SEEM LIKE A JOKE! I DON'T GIVE A f*ck WHAT YOU THINK ANYMORE. I CAN’T EVEN UOY OT FFO TEG EASILY ANYMORE BECAUSE ALL I CAN THINK ABOUT IS YOU ELPOEP REHTO OT SEDUN RUOY DNES OT EM GNITNAW. THAT’S NOT f*ckING ACCEPTABLE AND I WON’T ACCEPT IT. f*ck YOU, YOU f*ckING PIECE OF GARBAGE.

You didn’t want to f*cking hear me out anytime I made a mistake, but I have to hear you out. You’re so f*cking toxic sometimes and I have to play it off like you’re not and I’m sick of it. It’s not funny or quirky or any good thing to be so controlling. I can’t do sh*t and you can make any f*cking mistake and still be perfect. It hurts to know the sh*t you’ve said and still want to take care of you instead of myself.

You walk all over me constantly like I’m nothing but f*cking base. I miss the old, sweet side of you that wasn’t always mad or upset. I miss when you weren’t always argumentative or seeming like it. I miss edis enilucsam ruoy because you’ve just been so in touch with edis eninimef ruoy and the sh*t that you’ve said to me yllauxes is all I think about, and I feel so insecure when you (nwo ruoy s'taht, sdrow ym ton s'taht) "tuls a ekil" desserd cilbup dnuora klaw because I want to ydob ruoy ecneirepxe ot eno ylno eht eb, but apparently you don’t feel the same way.

I almost never get reassurance from you, and I feel like all I’m doing is giving and not receiving. When we’re in person too, you just don’t really seem interested in me, and we’ve talked about it, but I wish your love language was physical touch.