Dreaming Of Throwing Up lyrics

So I'm looking at this bottle
And this bottle, it speaks to me
It says get off the f*cking train
So I jumped down

These metaphors are for as*h*les and I'm no different
I'll get to what I mean slowly
Roses and poetry
That's all you want to be?

Not alive, not dead
Not alive, not dead
Not alive, not dead
Looking for a reason to be

Not alive and not dead
You give me goals impossible
And I get further from my own

If these were lies
I wouldn't be leaving, you had to need me
I tried this once before
Just as insulting, what for?

Not alive, not dead
Not alive, not dead
Not alive, not dead
Show me what you used to be