i’m honestly so lost and music doesnt help anymore lyrics

[Intro]
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[Verse]
I'm goin' crazy and it's not in a good way
I'm goin' crazy and it's not in a good way
I just wanna make my music, wanna get paid
I'm goin' crazy and it's not in a good way
Stay at my own pace, don't do it the fast way
I wanna fly overseas and see my brothers
In my bed for three days, stuck in the covers
I've got some uni friends and I've got some gun toters
She heard my music and she said that it's fire
I've been f*ckin' up, I don't know where I'm goin'
I ain't done sh*t, there's nothin' to admire
I'm losin' all my threads, I think I need some sewin'
Keep goin', I gotta keep goin'
Keep goin', but I don't have the power
I can't sleep, I can't sleep just for an hour
I wanna be on top, up in a tower
Turn me into ashes, into powder
You would've thought that I'd blossom like a flower
I can't control my vices, so I cower
I wanna die when I look into the mirror