...But I Pretend I’m a Beginner lyrics

[Verse 1: GBSN]
Everything is not what it seems
Not what it seems
The price we pay for living our dreams
Living our dreams
I’m losing composure
Can’t wait 'til it’s over
My mind is a boulder
That’s breaking my neck
The double-edged sword has me caught in a headstorm
But I won’t quit now
I can rest when I’m dead

[Chorus 1: TheDooo]
Can I catch a breath?
Blasphemy
I’ll trade my sanity
All for some vanity
Let it be my death
From within
Life’s a glass prison
Where no one can sin

[Verse 2: TheDooo, GBSN]
Crack under pressure
Or turn into a diamond
Stuck here so long
I don’t know where my mind is
My creative thoughts
Have been stuck in confinement
Give you what you want
I am always compliant
[Breakdown A: TheDooo, GBSN]
Everything that we love
Is temporary
Please remember me
When I’m dead and
I’m buried

My mind just
Wants to be free
Wants to be free
I pray one day
I’ll be at peace
I'll be at peace

[Breakdown B: GBSN, TheDooo]
On the other side
They swear grass is always greener
Do I sound ungrateful?
I’ll change my demeanor
I’ll paint you a picture
So that you can see it clearer
If you think I’m the problem
Then look in the mirror

[Chorus 1: TheDooo]
Can I catch a breath?
Blasphemy
I’ll trade my sanity
All for some vanity
Let it be my death
From within
Life’s a glass prison
Where no one can sin
[Bridge 1: TheDooo, GBSN]
Day after day
It just wears me out
Drags me down
Sleepless nights
Always filled with doubt
Maybe I’m masochistic
I am madly in love with it
And I can’t seem to get enough

Night after night
Sanity’s on fumes
It’s a trip
Take it all
I’m addicted to my doom
This life is so sadistic
I am madly in love with it
And I can’t seem to get enough

[Outro: GBSN, TheDooo, Both]
Thoughts
The spotlight is blinding
My skull is confining
My thoughts
The spotlight is blinding
My skull is confining my
Thoughts
My brain starts to rot
I did everything
To claw my way to the top
Thoughts
I sifted through
All of the snakes and the leeches
I poured blood, sweat and tears
For years just to reach this