Who’s suicide note is this lyrics

[Chorus]
I’m Christ without the cross
Like ice without the frost
Ain’t right to feel this nice value my life so what’s the cost
I lay my head and Rest In Peace
And I Feel dread when I’m just sleep Fell like a shepherd without sheep or like a record without beats

[Verse]
Felt alone and pessimistic do u feel me, really
I’ve been trying to forget it start the healing. It’s killing
Me alive
No Trojans by my side
Emotions that I shrive
The sh*t that I abide I’ve
Been caught inside a web
Deceived and I’m misled
Im peeved and I feel dread
Relieved that I’ll be dead soon
And I watch death take its course from my first breathe into a corpse
With no regrets or no remorse I’ll take my life inside a Porsche
Or maybe in a Benz my life will end soon enough
Can’t seem to make amends don’t have no friends, it’s true enough
I won a lot but lose too much
The time I got I used it up
I seen a lot been through to much
I mix the pot get zooted up
Lost my soul ,spirt ,and essence, watch my presence flow away
Control my whole state of deception
Apperceptions go away
I wrap it up and stowaway
I pack it up to throw away
I close my eyes and doze away
Spurn and despise it goes away
[Chorus]
I’m Christ without the cross
Like ice without the frost
Ain’t right to feel this nice value my life so what’s the cost
I lay my head and Rest In Peace
And I Feel dread when I’m just sleep Fell like a shepherd without sheep or like a record without beats

[Bridge]
Again I’m feeling torn
A jinn without its horns
When I die will people mourn or
Just despise that I was born
A jinn without its horns
Again I’m feeling torn
When I die will people mourn or
Just despise that I was born