family trauma lyrics

[Intro]
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[Verse 1]
I was just a kid when it happened, didn't really understand it
My dad in prision, my mama missin', so I didn't have a family
My family's lost because addiction, childhood dreams left abandoned
I was mad at God, at life, I questioned the cards I was handed
I question myself, I question the choices, just wanted y'all to accept me
I know at the time you was livin' in life, you didn't know the trauma'd affect me
Y'all didn't see the impact of actions, y'all had no way to protect me
I grew up with the thought in my mind that, maybe, my parents regret me

[Chorus]
I needed my mama, I needed my dad, I'm sorry I asked for too much
I'm sorry I live in the past, I know that I live in the past too much

[Verse 2]
But I can't forget, I'm a victim, remember the trauma so vaguely
Me and my sister get thrown in a room, and screamin' out, "someone, save me!"
Remember my step-father, Steve, I still hate his guts, can you blame me?
I'll never forget what he did to my mama, I'll never forget how he changed me
I'll never forget how he hit on my mama, that's not a man, that's a coward
Remember me yellin', remember me cryin' 'cause I couldn't do sh*t about it
I had to watch her in pain, I hate the fact she allowed it
But Mama was broke, and we needed a home, and we couldn't do it without him
I hate the fact that I judged you, I knew you did drugs, and I hate it
But you wasn't happy in life, and the high would just help you escape it
So, Mama, I'm sorry, (I'm sorry) I'm sorry I'm stupid for not understanding
You thought you was doin' your best, it's not all your fault that I'm damaged
People ain't perfect, I get it, life ain't never how you planned it
But that doesn't change that I'm hurt, 'cause all that I want was a family, f*ck
[Outro]
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