so far gone lyrics

[Verse]
Sometimes, I just wanna die, so I ain't gotta feel what I feel
Younger me just wants the love, and I wanna move on, so it's harder to heal
That's why I jump in my car and stomp on the gas, and let go of the wheel
I close my eyes, the adrenaline kicks in, and the feeling I get is surreal
Sometimes, I think I'm a maniac, my mind is a threat to myself
When I write out these songs, I think to myself, "I probably should keep all these thoughts to myself"
I'm a product of toxicness, raised in a family where blood don't mean sh*t
I've been deceivеd by my brother, betrayed by my cousin, thеy show me that family don't mean sh*t
I put my faith in these people, and all that I got was let down
I'm alone in my room, no one knows what I'm doin', in the silence, I lay and I drown
I'm always just trapped in conviction, I'm stuck tryna figure it out
I've been fightin' to live, I'm still stuck in my head, I'm tryna find a way out
But I'm prayin' for peace in a world that I see is just broken in pieces
Everyone hurts, then they heal, and again, the cycle's repeated
I gave my heart to the world, I sat and I watched 'em mistreat it
Fightin' a war, and I'm tryin' to win, but I'm already told I'm defeated

[Outro]
I guess that means I'm just losin' myself
Pshh, yeah