war with myself lyrics

[Intro]
So much hate for myself, it's unhealthy, I can't look in mirrors, I hate it
I know that addiction was deep in my genes, the pain is too much, I can't shake it
I can't face it, run from my problems, and hope I escape it
Got no one to blame but myself, I'm at war with myself with this Hell I created
Damn, I'm at war with myself, try medication, I hope that it'd help
Or maybe, there's nothing, and maybe, it's hopeless, and maybe, I'm cursed with the cards I was dealt
I'm at war with myself, trapped in my mind, man, I torture myself
So many nights, I just lay there and cry; then I look to the sky, and ask why I'm dеstroying myself

[Verse]
Damn, I never rеally knew where to go
I never really knew why I'm always in a rut, but I've always heard 'em say that it's the time when you grow
Lately, I've been feelin' like I'm dyin', and I don't wanna try, but I'm tryin'
'Cause I don't want Ma to shed tears when I'm gone, so I'm tryna keep it going, tryna tell her I'm fine
But I've been drownin' slow for a while now, I don't even shed tears when I cry now
I don't even see the point in me tryin' now
Know I made mistakes, I just wanna feel alright now
I just wanna feel-, I wanna feel okay, maybe I'm a prisoner to the pain
Or maybe, I'm ashamed that I complain, so I sit inside my room, I don't care to explain, damn

[Outro]
I wanna feel alright, maybe I ain't made for this life
I try to keep it going, and fight, 'cause you gotta make it through all the darkness to shine, damn
I wanna feel alright, maybe I ain't made for this life
I try to keep it going, and fight, 'cause you gotta make it through all the darkness to shine