Sincerely, your son lyrics

[Intro]
Yeah, where do I start? Feel like I'm losing myself
I know that I'm messed up inside, but how am I wrong for refusing to help?
I feel like I can't be fixed, maybe I am stuck in the dark
I don't think all the pills can fix the pain in my heart
So I guess it's' pointless

[Verse]
I lay in the dark in my sorrow, today I just gave it my all, but there's not enough for tomorrow
'Cause I'm tired of the pain, and I'm tired of the fightin'
Just tell me what it is worth
To give my all to these people for me to be selfless, just to be fillеd with this hurt?
What is the point? 'Cause I can't see anymore
I feel likе there is no point in living my life 'cause I'm not me anymore
And they say it gets better, but it's been forever, so I don't think I believe it
It probably get better in time, but now I won't be here to see it
But please don't be mad, it's not that I'm weak, I'm just tired
I wish my heart wasn't broken, 'cause then I could work on my mind
But life isn't fair I know, and not being happy is killin' me
I try to be vocal, they listen, but I don't think that you're hearing me
I hate that I'm broken, I hate that I'm stupid, I hate that I feel like a mistake
I hate when i am talking to God, I feel like he don't listen to when I pray
I hate that I look in the mirror and I hate the man lookin' back
I hate that I'm so insecure, I just wish you'd understand
Mama if you listen, please don't be mad, I know what i am doing ain't right
Your son isn't perfect, I'm not a fighter, I want you to know that I tried
I want you to know that I love you, but lately I don't feel like me
It was nothing that you did, you did what you could, it's something that is wrong with me
Since I was young, I have always felt like this, I never thought that I belonged
And this isn't because I'm depressed, it's 'cause I feel so alone
It's 'cause I feel like a burden, I am always living with grief
I've always felt like a problem, that's why everyone leaves
But really, I'm sorry, I know you wanted what's best for me
The world has been takin' my soul, but I leave you everything left in me
I love you forever and always, til' the moment you know I am gone
That moment is sooner than later, I love you, sincerely your son