It’s hard to be me lyrics

[Chorus:]
I carry myself
Through all of these memories, but
It's getting harder just to be me
Somebody save me

[Verse 1: Ely Waves]
It's like everyday is a different struggle
Young man, but I found a hustle
E-L-Y, that's a piece of the puzzle
I'm really blessed, but I'm still stressed
How I lost my muscle at a young age
Changed me, I had blind rage
Saw the world as a still beige
Seemed to lose it's color
Self esteem, in an empty gutter
Was praying for flooding that never would cover the losses I took
Rather just die than admit to my family cause they would discover
The path that I took
Used drugs as a cover, to cover the fact
That I f*cked up myself to a point where I'd never recover
Got lost in the lust and I fell for a lover, that never would love me
The way that I needed
Broken and pleading for someone to save me but no one would save me
I thought that she would
But I ended up hurting somebody that can't be replaced
Now when I look at life, I'm thinking like what a disgrace I made
Just dig me a grave and bury me deep, at least six feet
Cause I don't wanna breathe, and I don't wanna be
The person I turned out to be in end
Now I'm focused on turning the page and becoming a person that I could be proud of
Got tired of telling myself that I'm not it
So I gotta be it, before I would peace this
Yeah, making my peace
I'm making my peace
Before I would peace this
Yeah, making my peace
Before it all tears me to pieces
[Chorus:]
I carry myself
Through all of these memories, but
It's getting harder just to be me
Somebody save me

[Verse 2: Seon]
Man I been lost for a while
Struggling finding my way in this life
I just forget how to smile
Wonder what happened wish that I wasn't alive
Lately I been in denial
Saying I'm fine, running away from my mind
sh*t ain't been right since the trail
It ain't been right since the trial
They locked me for up like a year
I ain't have nobody there
Couldn't run like I did in the past, and I was facing all my fears
Coming to terms with all that I've done
All the feelings starting to flood
I'm drowning alone I ran out luck
I was so close to just giving it up
Now I'm out but I don't feel like I'm free
On a mission tryna find all my dreams
To steady losing never getting no sleep
I'm feeling empty getting closer to e
So what do I do, and who do I be
Life it been weighing me down
I don't what I should think
Cause I get caught in my addiction
Tryna not to make a difference
Wishing I could stop the sinning
Knowing I can't be forgiving
My whole life I'm never winning
My whole I'm never winning, for real
I pray this a dream and that none of this real
I'm waking up where I don't have to feel
Don't have to stress and I don't have to heal
I don't have to stress and I don't have to heal
[Chorus:]
I carry myself
Through all of these memories, but
It's getting harder just to be me
Somebody save me