Anxiety lyrics

I swear every day is something different
Death and helplessness feeling so empty
I trade my what if's for others
Like what if my illness was more than just wonders

I’m sick of being sick of me
Grit my teeth, weak in the knees
I can only run for so long before I trip and see
That I can’t change my outcome

My mind constantly races
I wish I could live without one
I’m my own worst enemy and that’s a reality
I take the smallest thing and turn it into tragedy

A sip of coffee to wake up
But caffeine rattles my brain like I’m insane
But I guess that’s just my makeup
I used to live carefree

But now I’m so scared, please
Just leave me the f*ck alone
Not anybody in general
But my own body, the temple

My insides like catacombs
Find my way through the dark to be back at home
The place I was taken from without consent
Only to be returned broken and bent
I can’t even be comfortable when I’m at ease
I create a storm from a gentle breeze
Why am I like this? Where did it come from?
It’s like most of me is in the penumbra

I fight to feel the rays, but I’m trapped in the overcast
I pray for clarity, but I haven’t prayed in ages
If I end up in hell, it’s probably better
Then what I face on a daily basis

I can’t even escape it on vacations
I try to relax but only relapse into another attack
Nothings intact, I can’t hold it together
I’m slowly sinking on this endeavour