Words Fail Me (I Fail Them, Too) lyrics

Sudden summer storms where the world feels as angry as it oughta be
Hope you find some comfort in the thought of me
My heart, the organ, not the idea strains to keep my life here
Five years, trying not to fall back

I never learn my lesson
Soon as the door’s closed, I try to count my blessings
Self-destruction felt like disinfecting
Out of euphemisms for it, baby, I’m a mess again

I’m good with words, but that won’t change the earth’s direction
And my father’s good with words, he still maintains his innocence
Evеry song I write still drips with my first crush’s influence
It’s just that no onе’s been that gentle with me since

I float away when I disobey with no time to pray for forgiveness
My intuition, it goes out of vision
And I cannot follow what’s not in frame

Now I just wanna be an old lady
I know there’s nothing pretty in crazy
I know you were right the whole time
I know I’m out of line, and self-awareness alone will not save me

Sleepy, hopeless, girl but I make it sound pretty if I can
Finally got what I wanted, someone to hear and understand
My private Snapchat stories still scare my high school friends
I stand in front of my mic, and f*ck my song up again
Guess I'll go cry to my mom, get so stoned I can't think
Try to write another song, spit some blood into the sink
Justify taking so long when really nobody asked
What could be keeping me from completing a finished task?

Oh, you're along for the ride, I appreciate the thought
But I have this sinking feeling the end may not fit the plot
The end may not fit the plot, the end may not fit the plot, the end may not fit the plot, fit the plot fit the- f*ck, I'm sorry