I’m only human. (a poem by 15 year old me) lyrics

I love it when you say that I'm only human
Because I got some situations where I'm constantly losing
Whether it's, toxic strangers or my struggles with music
Or when I beat myself up and you start helping me through it
Cus I got too many problems where I'm pickin' and choosin'
The wrong things that I should say or my sh*tty solutions like self harm and smoking weed
Trynna make an illusion to feel like my grip on Earth hasn't started to loosen
I'm so abusive to myself, I can't help it
Sometimes I try to do something nice and be little more selfless
But my brain still connects it to myself being selfish
And It's stupid I know, but oncе again I can't really help it
So as I sit herе crying, to myself and my sweater
In my bathroom cuttin' wishing that I could be better
You hit me with a text asking, "Hey, how you doing?"
So I tell you and you tell me once again
You're only human...