​kansas house. (interlude) lyrics

[Verse]
(Yuh)
Back when I was still a little kid on Kansas circle
When my father told my momma he ain't want me
I was purple, from the bruises fightin kids at school
I thought I wanted murder but I really wanted music
And expression through the verbal
I was cryin to my momma all the time about the huntin
Thought of drama, it was only addin problems to a problem child
I told a momma I so sorry, I been hurtin my whole body
Always shakin when school n sh*t is volatile
My brother smokin dope thought that was the way awhile
I started smokin dope, tryin numb the pain awhile
I was 12 years old just a juvenile
Now i'm fillin prerolls feelin suicidal
My babysitter as a kid was a pedophile
Doin sh*t I couldn't wrap my child head around
My momma cryin, I was scarеd my father reconcile
I told "I feel likе a woman" now it been a while
Its been a while since we talked like
Human sh*t was borderline abuse but its alright
Momma workin all day, I was cryin all night
Felt so alone as a child, I was growin more wild
But if you mess with my family then its on sight
Remember when I found out my brother died of cancer
Was the moment that I realized I ain't never want the spotlight
Lemme tell em’
[Chorus]
sh*t gon change in the Kansas house
I ain't really knew me had to figure sh*t out
I was only 13 I was so stressed out
I ain't knew what the f*ck this life was about (yeah)
sh*t goin change in the kansas house
I ain't really knew me I ain’t figure sh*t out
I was only 13 I was so stressed out
I ain't knew what the f*ck this life was about (yeah)