︎somber home lyrics

[Intro]
One, two, three, four!
But what would that be like?
I mean if we were together
Where would we be 10 years from now?
I'm afraid to die alone
I'm doctor Benine Henson
This is the joy of living!
Better get going now! They might leave you behind, yup, yup
Maybe your friends have feel good mixed up with get high
What's the difference?

[Part I]

[Verse: 1]
b*tch, I'm convinced I'm gonna die alone
Pop sh*t, toxicology and styrofoam
One night I'm goin' walk out the door of my crib with a smile on my facе like
I AIN’T COMIN' HOME!
Stared at the wall for 24 and it didn't movе, that's pitiful
This cynical nature or something vicseral (f*ck)
Can't spend your whole life chasin' after the (BUCKS)
I've been drivin' through the void but the answer is (ROUGH)
It was 5 a.m. and I was cracked out in the train station (Waitin')
Waitin' for the day that you would call me
Till I realized I ain' worth sh*t, Off me
Probably gonna end up in a
Ditch by autumn, ditch by autumn
Probably gonna end up in a
Ditch by autumn
[Verse: 2]
Drive my, huh, skateboard in the river, done lost my best friend
Face it dude, fatally dizzy, just want the numbness
Stumble like a bum round the city
My pockets heavy, but f*ck it the moon is out and she pretty
I said, autobiography raps he really in pain
On the autopsy they gonna see it in his drained face
Homie thought I was fallen asleep, but was nodding off
Locked jaw from the narcotics dropped in the esophagus
You should do drugs in the closet, they was closeted
You know cause like- you get it, like?
It's like whack that I just spit facts
But the lame motherf*ckers won't give me a chance
Remember I was thirteen and would listen to Chance
In the bathroom eyes closed doin' a dance, I said
Burned too many brain cells down
To be worried about my brain cells now
Burned too many brain cells down
Said I burned too many brain cells down
Uh, all that time was passed till we realized that
We don't like who we see inside
I could watch the moon come and could watch the sunrise
But it doesn't change the fact that I still wanna off myself

[Part II]
[Verse: 3]
Debra said tomorrow is a new day
Bev said love yourself
I ain’t listen neither two people, leave me two-faced
Vessel with no cold captain double thrill like Bo’ Jackson
Fear Imma die alone
Fear, I felt all the peaks and valleys
No it don’t get better than this
At what point did I lose my glint
This order uses the glimpse
Solitary life the spirit won’t miss
And to the air that I’ve been gifted remiss
Neglected it like a goldfish ion use this life well
Might as well give it to somebody else’s
The biggest terror parish alone
With nobody in love without a song or a bow
Going out as all the blood drowns
And fist un clinch
Your biggest affirmation the fear atmos...