My Mother Died Twice In The Hospital. She Made It Through. lyrics

[Chorus]
I see shadows at times, you see shadows as well
You don't know me well, I've seen Satan's hell

[Verse 1]
Christmas of like 2014 (Yuh)
My mom in the bed with no blink
I know after this, I'll need shrink
Hospitals suck and, man, this place stink
Smells of chemicals around the air
Stale bread and plates are f*cking bare
Hold my mother's hand, I'm in despair
I've never got this close 'cause I was scared
Never seen my whole family in one room
Gathering around waiting for her to go
Why is there not a doctor in here?
Somebody get a doctor in here
Then I heard a beep that was sustained
Oh, boy, f*ck, no, no oxygen in her brain
Then my heart start dropping and I get a chest pain
Then a rush of sorrow
Hey, God, are you entertained?

[Chorus]
I see shadows at times, you see shadows as well
You don't know me well, I've seen Satan's hell
I see shadows and trails, you see shadows and trails
Now you know me well, we've seen Satan's hell
[Verse 2]
I can't believe the tears that are falling down, I never cry
You've made me try, still don't deserve to die
All of this a game now?
It's just a game? (It's just a game?)
It's just a joke, right? It's just a farce? (It's just a farce?)
Mourning for the times I don't feel
I just nod my head, it's not even real
Best believe if I could change anything I ever did
It was build a better connection with **** and ****
Starting out was too late, boy, it's too far gone
Looking at my f*cking **** through my palm

[Bridge]
Stop, listen to your brain, get a razor to your vein
You don't need to finish life, you just need to vanish, die
Stop, listen to your brain, get a razor to your vein
You don't need to finish life, you just need to vanish, die

[Chorus]
I see shadows at times, you see shadows as well
You don't know me well, I've seen Satan's hell
I see shadows and trails, you see shadows and trails
Now you know me well, we've seen Satan's hell