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So long
Wanting to want
To want to want
Something good

All along
I think I've wanted
To want to want
Something I should

And it’s fine
If we don’t align
Because I’m finally
Changing my childish mind

I think I think
I’m starting to think
That something good
Should be mine

And I try to be gentle
With my state, it's mental
Try to change
I’m not static
But damn, it feels like I’m well on my way
Self-aware but I’m changing
Unblock your number, saying
“I don’t want to want to want you anymore
But there’s something keeping me from closing that door”

(The f*ck is that final chord? I don't know!)