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Against my nature
Against my will
Against my judgement
I’ve learned the skill
Against the backdrop of forever
Keep having hopes I have to kill
Nothing is more dangerous than my daydream unrestrained
It’s the gun I turn against myself
The poison pill I bite to break

I’ve learned to stomach the taste
I’ve learned to stomach the taste

Overexposure hasn’t numbed me yet
I fear I’m getting close
Every tolеrance break turns into full-fledgеd fatal dose

Do I give it up completely?
Do I surrender to that doom?
They say it comes when you’re not looking
Eyes drawn to everything that moves

Give me reasons
Teach me lessons
Prayers or something self-improved
Fleeting message, saying “yes, and”
Going with whatever they do
I’ve learned to stomach the taste
I’ll do whatever it takes
I learned to stomach the taste