​they don’t understand lyrics

[Chorus]
I can't blame you, you don't know what's goin' on in my head
It's hard to go outside when you think everything circ*mstance turns red
And what it could be in a minute, that sh*t just ends up dead
I don't like talking about it, lets just move it on instead
I hate bein' a mess, can't get up out of bed
Don't like this party life, I probably need some rest
I can't go out to drugs, they'll probably beat my chest
And eat me up alive until I'm fighting for my last breath

[Verse]
Do you believe in karma? I do, well for sure know that exists
I'll be an as*h*le 'til I'm 18, I can probably take a hit
And 20 more, I've cried on my floor too much before
'Cause every time you left me that was something I couldn't ignore
And every time you woke up, I was right by on your door
But recently it feels like you never f*cking hated me more
And when you open but don't answer that sh*t hit straight through my core
It even hurts more when I know that's that sh*t that I adore
You seem so perfect, you're something I can't get over with
And even if I do, I know I'll f*cking miss you
Probably go f*cking kiss you
Treat you like a real girl
Knowing it's an issue for me

[Chorus]
I can't blame you, you don't know what's goin' on in my head
It's hard to go outside when you think everything circ*mstance turns red
And what it could be in a minute, that sh*t just ends up dead
I don't like talking about it, lets just move it on instead
I hate bein' a mess, can't get up out of bed
Don't like this party life, I probably need some rest
I can't go out too dressed, they'll probably beat my chest
And eat me up alive until I'm fighting for my last breath