Facade lyrics

[Intro: Illumni]
[?]
She took care of all my scars
I've been [?] in the dark
(hauntingclaire)

[Verse 1: Illumni]
I don’t wanna tell you just how I've been
So many people I've called a friend
Take my hand and we’ll pretend
Take my hand and we'll pretend
And we'll be dancin' in the moonlight, I see the stars
Something about your smile just heals my scars
And when you stare, it cuts deep and rips me apart
And in the end, you decided to throw me aside

[Chorus: Illumni]
Like it was all a facade
I guess I'm tryin' too hard
I do not know what you want
I guess I got what you want
I know that I was the one
Why does my heart weigh a ton?
And in the end, you decided to love from afar
Push and shove me away
And now it's time to decide, and now it's time to decide
I’m in your mind, I’m in your mind
Trapped in the nether inside my head
[Verse 2: hauntingclaire]
I hate the way you make feel but I can't leave you
Hate the way that I’ll still f*ckin' love you and I need you
Another milligram just so I can get through the day
The things that you caused, you fill me with pain
We fight, we break up, we're here and we're back
Tell me who I’m supposed to go to when all of it gets bad
I f*cking being with you, you treat me like I'm trash
Don't you act like that, we both know it couldn't last

[Chorus: hauntingclaire]
Like it was nothing at all
I know I'm trying too hard
I didn't have what you want
You told me I was the one
Why are you leading me on?
Two years of pushing [?]
But I'm still movin' along
It hurts so bad, I'm gone
I'm gonna take all the trust, I wanna leave you alone
[?], please stop, pick up the phone
Always end the same
And I can't help that now