I Hate and I Love lyrics

QUINCY
Adamo, adamare
I love, to love, but more
To desire and infatuate
Lose some part you can’t restore
Amo, amare
I love, I feel obliged
Used for friends and for lovers
So how can one decide?

I can trap my heart in letters
Latin, syriac or greek
So you’ll laugh at all my nonsense
And the terror I can’t speak
I can turn to ancient poets
But their guidance seems invented
“I hate and I love; I can’t say why
But still I am tormented”

Ardescor, ardescere
I am burnt, to bе inflamed
To love someonе so intensely
When they’re gone your life is maimed
Uro, urere
I burn, I rage, I’m vexed
I hardly focus, waiting
For the time I see you next
So in libraries like churches
Or the margins of a scroll
I write nothing of importance
Losing patience and control
If I had leapt before the fall
Could this have been prevented?
I hate and I love, I can’t explain
But still I am tormented

I tried to trap religion
In ancient language and conjecture
I try to do the same to you
Devotion deadens every lecture

Love is god and god is love
It’s all the f*cking same
No grace without forgiveness
No forgiveness without shame

SAINTS
Shame, shame, shame

QUINCY
I just want to be with you
Your hand in my hair
In some sunny room somewhere
It doesn't matter where
That's the worst thing about it
Your unintentional theft
If I lose my ambitions
Is there anything left?
Any part of me left?
Anyone to love left?

Ego adamandi
Falling in love, apart
I can’t cut you without bleeding
But can’t strike you from my heart
Ego adamandi
Sharing one defiled grave
I’ve become unrecognizable
No selfhood left to save

No freedom for a creature
So dependent and demented
I hate and I love, I can’t explain
But still I am tormented