Disconsolate lyrics

[Verse]
Mostly I am hoping, that I will end up floating
'Cause my only way of coping is smoking and snorting, and popping
My brain is solar rotten, I promise no more toxins but I can't seem to stop it
Alone and nauseous and rockin'
Back and forth between
Darling please save me from my dreams
I'm the devil in the flesh, for your touch I only fiend
I am broken please don't leave
I promise I can kick it just don't tear away from me
This mix of love and ecstasy, your loving's compressin' me
This destiny, infectiously, you put a hex on me
But you left me all alone in the dark, in the cold
Where the wind cut deep into my bones
So to cope I had chosen overdose in the liqs
And I'm twistin' mixture of my favourite mistresses
Sip it just to cloak the distance, maybe then you'll get it
That this sh*t is everything I've invested in it
This holds the keys to my love and existence (listen)
This holds the keys to my love and existence