Despair lyrics

[Intro: ICETRESAVAGE]
Why, oh why? (𝘖𝘰𝘩, 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘣𝘦𝘢𝘵 𝘧𝘪𝘳𝘦)

[Verse: CETRESAVAGE, 𝘒𝘋𝘢𝘺, 𝐃𝐚𝐕𝐢𝐧𝐜𝐞]
Life's full of desolation and despair
Don't placate me, therapy wasn't working
Dealt with so many losses, often, lose myself
Still trying to find my true purpose, prove myself
Feeling hopeless, distraught and empty
Dealing with anger, don't tempt me
Depression left some terrible scars, deep wounds
Don't know what's going on, everything's strange
Trying to make sense of the world, digress
Everything's distorted and unfamiliar
Steady trying to maintain, it's such a strain
Full of dreadful memories, can't cope anymore
Feel so hopeless, don't know my worth
I don't want to be alone, but I'm so alone (Why?)
Despair, depression, which one is worse?
Tried to escape, trapped in an endless hearse
My pain won't go away, it keeps lingering
Can't deal with this negativity given to me
Tired of being used, thrown away, this isn't a ruse
All this animosity, hostility, irritability
Done with this pity that I can't condone (Help me)
𝘋𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘵𝘦𝘭𝘭 𝘮𝘦 𝘩𝘰𝘸 𝘵𝘰 𝘭𝘪𝘷𝘦, 𝘺𝘰𝘶'𝘳𝘦 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘮𝘦
𝘌𝘯𝘳𝘢𝘨𝘦𝘥, 𝘥𝘦𝘳𝘢𝘯𝘨𝘦𝘥, 𝘐'𝘮 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘮𝘺𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧 𝘢𝘯𝘺𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘦
𝘚𝘶𝘧𝘧𝘦𝘳𝘪𝘯𝘨, 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘱𝘢𝘪𝘯 𝘨𝘪𝘷𝘦𝘴 𝘮𝘦 𝘢𝘯𝘨𝘦𝘳, 𝘢𝘯𝘹𝘪𝘦𝘵𝘺
𝘊𝘢𝘯'𝘵 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘵𝘳𝘰𝘭 𝘪𝘵 𝘢𝘯𝘺𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘦, 𝘯𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨'𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘴𝘢𝘮𝘦 𝘢𝘨𝘢𝘪𝘯
𝘛𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘥 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘰 𝘤𝘰𝘱𝘦, 𝘐'𝘭𝘭 𝘯𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘣𝘦 𝘴𝘢𝘯𝘦 𝘢𝘨𝘢𝘪𝘯
𝘗𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘴𝘦 𝘵𝘦𝘭𝘭 𝘮𝘦 𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘮𝘺 𝘱𝘢𝘪𝘯 𝘣𝘦 𝘰𝘷𝘦𝘳?
𝘐'𝘮 𝘰𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘭𝘮𝘦𝘥, 𝘣𝘦𝘦𝘯 𝘪𝘯 𝘢 𝘥𝘦𝘱𝘳𝘦𝘴𝘴𝘪𝘷𝘦 𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘵𝘦
𝘛𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘬 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘐'𝘮 𝘨𝘰𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘩𝘳𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩 𝘪𝘴 𝘧𝘳𝘢𝘶𝘥𝘶𝘭𝘦𝘯𝘵?
𝘐𝘴 𝘮𝘺 𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘦 𝘢 𝘴𝘪𝘯? 𝘞𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘐 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘸𝘪𝘯?
𝘑𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘮𝘦 𝘢𝘭𝘰𝘯𝘦, 𝘐 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭 𝘴𝘰 𝘣𝘦𝘵𝘳𝘢𝘺𝘦𝘥
𝘎𝘰𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘪𝘯𝘴𝘢𝘯𝘦, 𝘐'𝘮 𝘰𝘯 𝘢 𝘳𝘢𝘪𝘥, 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨'𝘴 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘰𝘬𝘢𝘺
𝘞𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘦𝘭𝘴𝘦 𝘤𝘢𝘯 𝘐 𝘥𝘰? 𝘐'𝘮 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘪𝘯 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘵𝘳𝘰𝘭 𝘢𝘯𝘺𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘦
𝘊𝘢𝘯'𝘵 𝘵𝘳𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘢𝘯𝘺𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘶𝘯𝘭𝘦𝘴𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘺 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭 𝘮𝘺 𝘱𝘢𝘪𝘯
𝘚𝘰 𝘳𝘦𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘪𝘴𝘤𝘦𝘯𝘵, 𝘤𝘢𝘯'𝘵 𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘱𝘢𝘴𝘵 𝘥𝘢𝘺𝘴
𝘉𝘦𝘦𝘯 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘵𝘰𝘳𝘮𝘦𝘯𝘵 𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳, 𝘪𝘵 𝘸𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘤𝘦𝘢𝘴𝘦 (𝘕𝘰)
𝘍𝘶𝘭𝘭 𝘰𝘧 𝘩𝘢𝘵𝘦, 𝘢𝘯𝘨𝘦𝘳 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘥𝘦𝘴𝘱𝘢𝘪𝘳, 𝘣𝘳𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘮𝘦 𝘥𝘰𝘸𝘯
𝘋𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘴𝘱𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘮𝘺 𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘦, 𝘐 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘵𝘰𝘸𝘯
What I been through isn't a hoax
Real life, don't need to brag or boast
Tried different methods to forget all this pain
Need some balance in my life, is there hope?
How can I stay focused when I feel so hopeless?
Reality shattered, everything's broken
Well, that's really saddening, I'm weakened
Life's eroding, fading away
Despair, anger, pain, shame, hate (It's the same)
Can't distinguish a difference between everything
What else can I do? Inside, I'm deeply hurting
My past, it's too discerning
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