DARK NIGHT IN THA 919 lyrics

[Hook]
I got blood up on my sheets, I been cryin' all day
Eyes dry, f*ckin' red, I can't even see straight
I hadn't got high for about 7 months
But, the fake sh*t, it got to me that no one gives a f*ck
Feelin' desolate and out to dry, ultimately dead inside
Brain is f*cked, a scrambled mind since you were only over 5
Just by a couple months, now I guess it's all f*cked
Went down a dark road, dark night, and it's f*ckin' rough

[Verse 1]
You wanna know the truth? I got no friends up in this f*ckin' life
This is me talkin', f*ck the SLUM name, f*ck the bullsh*t 919
It's a façade, a damn mirage, I ain't no killer, bruh, you know
I ain't no gangster, no gangbanger, bruh, I'm just 1-5 Years old
A private school is where I go, my lowest grade a 98
I'm tryna bе a doctor so I know I'm gon' have to do great
But I don't know if I can handle all this food that's on my platе
I only try as hard as I do out of my self-hate
When my bruh left me, ghosted me for just some b*tch, I lost my mind
When that girl left me, ghosted me, I relapsed, wanted straight to die
Simplistic, yeah I know, but how I felt right at the time
If- if I got nobody, maybe it's not their fault, it could be mine
I ain't never had nobody ever there ask me, like
"Hey, how you doin'? Everything goin' alright?"
Like, nah, f*ck, it's been too long, I been on here tryna rot
Six feet, Hell heap, in that early grave plot
[Hook]
I got blood up on my sheets, I been cryin' all day
Eyes dry, f*ckin' red, I can't even see straight
I hadn't got high for about 7 months
But, the fake sh*t, it got to me that no one gives a f*ck
Feelin' desolate and out to dry, ultimately dead inside
Brain is f*cked, a scrambled mind since you were only over 5
Just by a couple months, now I guess it's all f*cked
Went down a dark road, dark night, and it's f*ckin' rough

[Verse 2]
Ritalin prescribed when I was only 6
Them stupid b*tch doctors, guess they didn't know sh*t
How it would affect me in a couple years since
I was only like, I don't know, 6?
Could they not f*ckin' sense
That a mind-altering drug won't be the best
Solution to my problem? I was too young for them f*ckin' meds
Now it f*cked me up, got depression and it's clinical
Paranoia, bipolar, and it's not original
My pysche is straight f*cked from all the wires that were shocked
It's kind of a surprise I even want to be a doc
Maybe to prevent those same kids that were just like me
Havin' their brain beat to the f*ckin' third degree
Honestly, I can't see reality without these pills
But if I never came back to the 919, it would be real
f*ck it all, I cannot fret, it's not my choice, I can't regret
I just regret my whole life right now, I'm so f*ckin' stressed
[Hook]
I got blood up on my sheets, I been cryin' all day
Eyes dry, f*ckin' red, I can't even see straight
I hadn't got high for about 7 months
But, the fake sh*t, it got to me that no one gives a f*ck
Feelin' desolate and out to dry, ultimately dead inside
Brain is f*cked, a scrambled mind since you were only over 5
Just by a couple months, now I guess it's all f*cked
Went down a dark road, dark night, and it's f*ckin' rough