[Verse 1]
Forgive me I've been drinkin back road and I'm thinkin'
Remembering the band played on while the ship's sinkin'
No matter what I do
There's no escaping my past
I do everything I can and it keeps chasing my ass
I know my karma is constant for all the hearts that I broke
Knowing I'll never be forgiven that sh*t bothers my soul
When it's thrown up in my face, man that sh*t f*cks up my day
No matter what I do I feel I'm only judged by mistakes
Even if the good outweighs It by a million to one
They still gonna hate me for the single f*ckin thing that I done
(Even if the good outweighs
It by a million to one
They still gonna hate me
For the single f*ckin thing that I done)
[Chorus]
I try not to think of hard times
I try hard to let the past go
I thank God that I'm a changed man
But some days I'm that same as*h*le
Same old me the same back roads
A couple of crosses and a black rose
Singing the same old sad song
[Verse 2]
I must admit I'm infatuated with sad clowns
I guess they help me better understand my dad now
Those that entertain at the expense pain
Those that dance in rain
Instead of just complain my brother always said
I was ahead of the game
Even before the f*ckin money hit
The jealousy came put it all on the line
There's not regrets in this sh*t
I admit besides the blessings there was lessons in it
They said life was a marathon tighten up 'cause you gotta run
I know the dollar spends as fast as the dollar comes
While these other rap dudes in the strip club with a lot of ones
I'm just trying to buy a crib and start my kids a college fund for real
[Chorus]
I try not to think of hard times
I try hard to let the past go
I thank God that I'm a changed man
But some days I'm that same as*h*le
Same old me the same back roads
A couple of crosses and a black rose
Singing the same old sad song
[Verse 3]
Can I be real for a minute?
Release this passion within
My fat ass gettin' bigger
I need to get back to the gym
I'm looking at myself like how the f*ck this happen again
Baby mama got out of jail and she done relapsed again
I swear I'm telling y'all the truth
There's so much sh*t in the air
My father got leukemia he just left critical care
Not to mention mama's got dementia man's she's always feeling sick
I tried to help and pay the rent but she's unhappy as it gets
I cannot complain because my daughter's doing great
Plus this music's such a dream, what the f*ck you think it ain't
But please make no mistake baby after this show
I'm all alone on this road heading back to my home
[Chorus]
I try not to think of hard times
I try hard to let the past go
I thank God that I'm a changed man
But some days I'm that same as*h*le
Same old me the same back roads
A couple of crosses and a black rose
Singing the same old sad song