Heaven’s Gate lyrics

[Verse 1]
I created those around me
Though, I don't know which is worse
'Cause playing god is funny 'til you have to choose who's dying first
I became the thing I feared, taking their lives in my hand
My innocence had consequences that I still don't understand
I was told that I was vital in the plan to save my life
So I promised mine in hopes I'd be the one holding the knife
Our bodies were the vehicle, transporters of the soul
I was young and bold and stupid in a six-foot self-dug hole

[Chorus]
Was I thе only one to question anything they said?
I takе it back, I'll follow 'til I fly or 'til I'm dead
My immortal evolutionary traits are still intact
I am unapologetic for the sympathy I lacked
I left my body back in California 'cause I'm weak
Overdosed on phenobarbital, It's part of my mystique

[Verse 2]
So, in '97, I gave up my future
I'd been raised to reject my human nature
In the hopes that I'd be praised
I thought SOS meant "save our souls"
Instead, it meant jack sh*t
'Cause nobody came to help me when I told myself I'd quit
I trusted blindly, was it wrong for me to latch on tight?
'Cause I didn't realize nettles stung and apples weren't all white
Ignorance is bliss or maybe ignorance is bait
'Cause I didn't deserve heaven, but I'm standing at its gate
[Chorus]
Was I the only one to question anything they said?
I take it back, I'll follow 'til I fly or 'til I'm dead
My immortal evolutionary traits are still intact
I am unapologetic for the empathy I lacked
I left my body back in Cali, I'm not bothered to return
The taste of apple sauce and vodka aren't my main concerns
(aren't my main concerns)

[Bridge]
Giving up is easy when the default's to survive
'Cause a better life will only cost three quarters and a five
I'll meet you in the promised paradise we often preach
So I'd hope for liberation, but that isn't what we teach

[Chorus]
My immortal evolutionary traits are still intact
I am unapologetic for the empathy I lacked
I left my body back in San Diego, Santa Fe
They could tell me f*cking nonsense with the knowledge I'd obey