Hyde park (part two) lyrics

[verse 1]
October 1st I was alone
I was only seventeen when I had to leave home
Hadda prove to everybody I'm grown
Hit everything up like I'm in my zone
October thirty first that was the year
I typed out a message that I couldn't send, but...
November first you had a part of me
Came out of nowhere like damn girl you startled me
I've been so hard to reach
Oxytocin in my arteries
Damn this is hard for me
But that's when winter came
December first and you feeling the same
No longer feel pain
Life all around me does not feel the same, no
Cause I had a piece of you
I wanted to be with you
Had so many things that I wanted to see with you
Got so excited when I got to speak to you
You feeling feelings that you never felt
You never felt this way 'bout no one else
You tried to hide it and you tried to fight it, but you can't deny that's the hand you were dealt
I was afraid that you don't understand me til' we had that night with a bottle of brandy
You leaned above me, you told me you love me
Then I said it too and it felt so uncanny
But that sh*t was real
We had something alive and it was so real
( whoa yeah, yeah )