​ihatefeelingthisway lyrics

[Intro]
I opened my eyes
Knowing, I could never see myself
As who I am
The distance
To what I aspire to be
Only grows (Only grows)
As I'm finding (Finding)
Myself

[Verse 1]
Mom, I'm sorry
For not texting back again
And you know that I struggle
My apartment's a mess again
After work, I work
Seem to be loving the stress
My friends seem to know I'm better
So there's no need to check
Right?

[Bridge]
Got some new friends I love
But distance's holding me back
A sixty minute drive seems trivial
But I work 'til 7 P.M
And I need time to make some music, and the traffic is bad
So make it eighty instead
Feel like this is all just a test (O-oh)
Inuday
[Chorus]
(Ooh)
All the time in my room will it be enough?
(Ooh)
Ten years without moves so I'll have to run (He—)
Everything I do in my eyes seems so basic
Hate my tone, my style, and my cadence
Soon
I'll be making progess will it be enough?

[Verse 2]
Mom, I'm sorry
I almost cried
When that little succulent died
You gave me when I moved
'Cause other plants won't survive
And I acted offended
But I knew you were right, yeah
'Cause sometimes I'm not comfortable living as a grown-up
A dozen creepy mannequin lurkin' 'round the corner
They want my money, want my time, want my life, yeah
Telling me to man up
Makes me want to throw up

[Chorus]
(Ooh)
All the time in my room will it be enough?
(Ooh)
Ten years without moves so I'll have to run (He—)
Everything I do in my eyes seems so basic
Hate my tone, my style, and my cadence
Soon
(I'm here)
I'll be making progess will it be enough?
[Outro]
I-I don't want depression to get the best of me
A best me stays a f*ckin' fantasy
Take the pressure and I put it in a melody
For myself and everyone that relates to me
And my health worries my partner, but I struggle seeing doctors
Breathing just gets harder, whole life feeling like a come-up
Yeah, I guess this is just karma for the people that I've harmed
And I'm not seeking for advice, I'm quietly bleeding 'til I die
I hate feeling this
This way