Imdyslexicbutyourebauetiful lyrics

[Intro]
I think ima do a project thats like slam poetry meets guitar, i dunno, you guys are here for it

[verse 1]
I feel like somethings off inside of my head
'Cuz each damn day I wake up I can barely escape my bed
It's not as if I'm lost or trapped, I just choose to stay
It's like I would rather live life any other way
When I think of you it's like a damn perfect picture
Painted by Picasso
I know corny sh*ts saying your perfect
'Cuz you're not though
And I dream of big things
Sometimes I dream too big
My thoughts are f*cking stupid too and I like to question if they're really thoughts
Sеlf-regard my own damn self-love, hatrеd always outweighs the most
Its heavy on my shoulders that's why I won't come back
Hate me in a way
I'm not tryna say I got it perfect
We're far from that
But nothings really bad until you have to get it back
I dunno what I'm saying but
I love you like the world loves to be a b*tch
I love you like the world loves to kill off its own damn people
I love you like bosses who love their employers and make them work more for them
I love you like everyone likes money, in their greedy, sl*tty way
I'm not selfish of you, but I'm sure as hell not gonna let you be off on your own
Self-regard all my things I've done to myself, I can barely be alone by myself
Its these dreams that I can't keep out my head, yet I cannot retrace my steps of the things I've done, I know those dreams
I feel guilty
I feel guilty
I feel lost, yet I'm still f*ckin dumbfounded
How I still found you
You know
The lights always seem to light up the world
Baby when I'm with you I can see everything
It's crazy how the world's still dark though
I mean you've done your part
But I'm lookin through a glass that has a pint-sized hole
I can barely see fully
As pictures of you enclose in my head
Repeatedly
I mean
Lust over love, what do I choose?
Is there someone out there better or is it you?
I can't tell nowadays
I'm screwed, I'm f*cked in my head, mentally, I'm tryna find my damn pace
I know my parents find out they think I'm a damn disgrace its f*ckin cruel that I'm living in this way
But I'm self-induced, self-sabotaging so much i can barely f*ckin do things without f*cking things up
I like to dream big
I dream a little too big
[verse 2]
I'm over it
I mean
I could walk the plank, and yet I'd still be over it
I could slam my gas
Driving 180 on the freeway
As my car go fast
I wouldn't feel a thing
I could drown my thoughts
With liquor every day
I could smoke away the pain
Just so that i could feel okay
But the thought of you rots my brain
Consumes half of these things
The thoughts i have
Consist of you all day
I'm not a man
I'm a coward
That likes to hide behind a face
I built myself my own dilemma
But i hate the way it tastes
I don't feel as if I'm perfect
But I'm sure in hell am not bad
I just wish you'd understand
I love you to the moon and back
You like to tell me that the stars were written
In ways that i could understand
You told me no matter what happens
It's always in my hands
I feel broken at best, probably because I've done this to myself
I wanted a good life
But i hate being good
I mean life's f*cking weird how i talk about it
I like to keep myself grounded
Depending on who you ask
They all think of me in different ways
I like to tell people what they wanna hear
And make them feel okay
I hate feeling left out
I don't like to make sense
I make dollars
Yet I'm still barely heard
I mean this damn life I've been living is so absurd
I can barely f*cking care about her
I could damn do the same thing been doing to my damn lungs every night
I could f*cking light up this place and burn down the forest
And watch as everything crash
I mean its f*cked
My life's not bad
I've got sh*t going and working in my damn way
But i still feel insane
Incapable of talking to myself 'cuz of my damn brain
These words that i could cycle through
Never seem to f*cking matter
'cuz they're all just words at the end of the day
I'm tryna let you f*cking know
That i love you
And i love you to the moon and back
I don't think
You like to tell me I'm a stupid b*tch
I don't think you ever said that
But it sounds like it when you sigh
I mean its f*ckin stupid how i could think of you
Its f*cking stupid how i can think of you
But you're so good to me
You only do bad things once in a while
And i still look past that
I only like to admire the bad in people
Cuz that makes something to laugh at
I could f*ckin talk about my own securities all day, but yet that's nothing i like to do
Im stuck inside of my damn head
Most the time i feel like I'm screwed
Please
Tell me I'm okay
Please
Tell me its gonna be fine
I dont care if it takes a year to me better
I just want you back in my life
I mean I'm talking like I've lost you but i still damn have you but it feels like I've lost myself
I could walk for miles and miles and miles and yet id still feel lost in myself
I don't wanna cry yet
I mean i can barely do it myself
I need someone's help please
Please, someone
Everything about you
Is so pretty
From the way you present yourself
I can't help but stare sometimes
Im sorry that
Id stare a little too much
But i can't help when somethings so pretty like you
Crafted by gods damn hands
A perfect lady
I wouldn't mind having a baby with this
Weird and too soon to say that
But i don't know
You're so pretty
I dream of you
In ways that you wouldn't wanna hear
But my dreams of you
Are only about the things that we do
Like
I think big, but my life just seems to be a quite little bit bigger
I dunno what the f*ck I'm saying but
I love you
In more ways that i should
I think about you 24/7 hours of my damn day
Im complaining
'cuz im a spoiled little brat
Id be okay with living life with you
You're the flame while I'm the damn forest
Im burning, please help me
You're the flame while I'm just the forest
I want you to consume all of me in ways i would've never advised
For anyone
Im self-harming myself without losing anything for fun
I mean its f*ckin stupid
But
I just love you in ways i wish
I wish it was f*ckin stupid
So, i could laugh it off like it's a f*ckin joke
But it's not
I mean I'm lost
Can i please be the man to take you to your dreams?
I feel like I'm bad, i dunno
I dunno
But
All i can know is that I'll be fine in a week or so
I just
I just like the idea of you
I think
Step one, is accepting that i have an issue of course but
Step two, is tryna work on that said issue
I mean its f*ckin easier said than done
I mean i wish to god i could just say its f*ckin over
And it'd be done
I'm tryna act like a boy but yet i wanna laugh at sh*tty jokes
Somethings problematic at best but
I don't think its really that bad
You're embarrassed
The thought of me leaves you f*ckin embarrassed
I know
I know
I decide that you'd be better off with some other f*ckin guy
You like to tell me "I'm the only one for you"
But i don't think that's quite that true
Because something about me seems off
Maybe its the part I don't tell you about
Its like something about me feels off
Dreams are vivid
I mean dreams are f*ckin quite liquid
I could spill it out if i wanted to
But i don't want you to think of me differently
I mean it's quite awfully weird
The thoughts of you are so vivid and clear
Yet i can barely find myself
I'm f*cking building concepts of something i once was
Its f*cking silly
Really its f*cking silly but
Oh, I love the thought of you (?)
Oh, let me the one there for you (?)

f*ck

Okay here we go, here we go
Wake up
Your makeups all up on your pillowcase
I wake up
Makeup on my shirt again
I don't wanna wake up any other way
I can't help but feel as if it (?)
You're the one that i wanna die next to
I want you to be my number two
I don't wanna let you go x4

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