What My Heart Held lyrics

I just want to feel something
I just want to feel something new

I feel like I'm stuck in this routine
Every day is decided before I wake
Every dream that I've dreamt I don't want to chase
All the people I've met, I start forgetting their names

The whole day just blurs into one picture
And months later, there are collections of copies
Everything looks the same
Everything feels the same

I feel like I'm stuck in this routine
Every day is decided before I wake
Every dream that I've dreamt I don't want to chase
All the people I've met, I start forgetting their names

And they forget mine and I give them no blame
I'm so disconnected I don't feel the same
That I did when we started
When I knew what my heart held

So what does my heart hold now?
Is it something else or am I too blind to see I'm still the same?
I know I still hold close the same things I always have
But this world crashes down on me and I can only think about the weight
Instead of those who were always there to help me hold it up