The person i’m not (demo) lyrics

[Verse 1]
I'm mourning a person I never became
In a different city, with a different name
I would make my life one giant strategy game
If I could go back to the start

[Verse 2]
Spent my evening being swallowed by pitty and doubt
Played no part in the words that were leaving my mouth
I'm angry but I don't recall what about
Everything's falling apart

[Chorus]
Was it ever easy or was I just
Coping with things that would soften the pain
Tighten the tourniquet, wrap it with shame
I'm bearly breathing I can't adjust
To losing my 20s to my kitchen floor
And I don't even feel likе a person anymore

[Verse 3]
They say it gеts better but won't give a timeframe
I'm coming to terms with the fact that I'm not the same
Person I was when I was the one to blame
For everything falling apart
[Verse 4]
I stay up all night wishing that I had a time machine
I'd do some things different, if I knew what could've been
See it unfold like a set on a movie screen
Travelling back to the start

[Chorus]
Was it ever easy or was I just
Coping with things that would soften the pain
Tighten the tourniquet, wrap it with shame
I'm bearly breathing I can't adjust
To losing my 20s to my kitchen floor
And I don't even feel like a person anymore