Relapse (Pluto demo) lyrics

in the first set of hours of June
i lost my sister to a sickness nobody knew
she was the one autoimmune but none of us could move
there was a thickness in the air that only she couldn’t breathe

I’d curse God, but for some moment My body wouldn’t let me
there was so much i could of shouted through me
but my body fell silent unfortunately
now with grief, i feel guilty for not speaking proudly

the silence drowned us twice
checked back to make sure we were all dead
and washed us one one final time
with salt in my eyes, i never shut them so i could memorise you one last time

a chill presents itself upon my spine
it puppeteers me and i comply
Now i dont know how to move away from the dust,
shake the dust out of me,
We relapse into the things we miss the most,
and i hope I relapse into you

I felt a collapse,
beneath my ribcage when your heart fell flat
i swallowed it down, i wasn’t going to acknowledge it
definitely not like that
I thought i knew you,
but the needle to the vein knew you better than me
the end of love came soon enough

It would of been so sweet for you to see me as i truly was meant to be
but without you id never love the forgotten parts of me
there is an ocean i hid
but now there is a bay
where i allow as many as i may
in the honour of your name

June took your breath but it’ll never take the presence you’d leave
there are paw prints tattooed all over my body and soul indefinitely
with bitter teeth ill let you sleep
with a heart ill let you go at peace
with time ill love you with no ache beneath,
Bronte