​i just wanna be normal. lyrics

[Intro]
Yeah, I'm still alive but my life is still over
Know I'll never be enough
All I wanted was your love (Your love)
And I'm too far gone (Yeah)
My head's ruined, I just wanna be normal (Wanna be normal)
It seems like everything's against me being happy (Yeah)
'Cause no one's ever glad to have me (Glad to have me)

[Verse 1]
Push away, push away (Push away)
When I scream for help, yeah, you might as well just kill me yourself (Yeah)
It would take some weight off my shoulders (Off my shoulders)
I know I'm still alive, but my life is so over (So over)
Can you hear me as I fade away?
I'll scream your name 'til my lungs hurt (My lungs hurt)
This might be the last time that I see your face
Watch you in the dark 'cause I'm fallin' under (Fallin' under)

[Chorus]
Yeah, I wonder if you noticed me in all my pain (All my pain)
All the emotions that I can't contain
Yeah, I try to run away, but all of my bones fall apart
Collapse under the weight of my body
I did everything I could to tell you I'm sorry
'Cause I couldn't be there when you needed someone by your side
Now I'm stuck in my head, thinking it's my fault you died (Yeah)
[Post-Chorus]
I'm broken to pieces
All by myself, all I need is you
Yeah, you're the one thing I needed
But I guess it's fair 'cause I did it to you
Yeah, I slept through your missed calls
As you emptied your tears, holdin' onto your pills (Oh)
12:23 a.m., I'll never heal from that
Dreamin' about our future at ten, I still feel from that

[Verse 2]
Yeah, I need you back
No, I never thought someone I love could disappear like that
I'm goin' home, it's been a year since I felt a thing
Now all I do is cry, I wanna take back everything
Now I fall onto my knees as I look over your grave
Lost everything, including myself, I'm too far to save
Every day, I'm paranoid about everything, I'm not not safe
Every day, I cry myself to sleep 'cause you can't be with—

[Chorus]
Yeah, I wonder if you noticed me in all my pain (All my pain)
All the emotions that I can't contain
Yeah, I try to run away, but all of my bones fall apart
Collapse under the weight of my body
I did everything I could to tell you I'm sorry
'Cause I couldn't be there when you needed someone by your side
Now I'm stuck in my head, thinking it's my fault you died (My fault you died)