i tried to run lyrics

[Intro]
GAXILLIC on the track

[Verse 1]
I miss the way you hurt me, it gave me proof of my existence
And I tried to make it work for you, but you just showed me resistance
"Why would I try to take you back?" is a question I ask myself
As I lay in my bed late at night as I cry my heart out
No, I never thought I'd make it this far now
And I'm stuck with my thoughts, I left my guard down
My mental health has depleted, oh, f*ck, now I'm barely eating
I know I said I don't need you, but I'm alone, wanna see you

[Chorus]
I tried to run, and it only got me further deeper into my despair
Biting my nails, losing sleep, life's not fair, no
I had tried to run from my problems
And now I'm alone, I can't solve them
How do you reach the dead? I wanna call them

[Verse 2]
Yeah, it's been two years, and I still haven't recovered
Now every day, I'm blind by tears, nothing hurts more than losing a lover
I saw you on the floor, heart tied in your chest
Now I can't see you anymore, but I'm glad you can rest now
Razor blades, tears falling down my face
I don't know who I am, will I ever be okay?
Dissociation coping habits
I want to rip out the heart that's attached to you
No, I can't let go, it's tragic
I take all this damage, now I missed a fraction, okay
[Chorus]
I tried to run, and it only got me further deeper into my despair
Biting my nails, losing sleep, life's not fair, no
I had tried to run from my problems
And now I'm alone, I can't solve them
How do you reach the dead? I wanna call them