feel nothin lyrics

[Intro]
Jvsper

[Chorus]
I'm getting so high, it feels like life just isn't real
Yeah, I took all of this damage, now I don't know how to heal
f*ck me 'til I pass out, yeah, I love the way it feels
f*ck me while I cut myself, I want you for my last meal
Wanna ride it like a pornstar
Go-Go-Goin' so hard
Don't care if you go too far
Use me like I don't matter
God, I'm such a loser
Razor blades stuck in my flesh
Die on my computer
God, I'm such a f*cking mess

[Verse 1]
Addicted to the pills, still have bloody stains in my bed
Every day I wanna kill myself, the thoughts are stuck in my head
Wanna cut, wanna run, I'm in love with the blood from my legs
And my head, when I blow my brains out, will it end?
When I'm dead, wanna find a way out
Always cry when I try, yeah, I'm always goin' down
Traumadoll in my system, but it doesn't help the pain
Baby, use me like a doll, I don't wanna go insane
Traumatized, I just wanna feel something
OD on the pills, heart beatin' fast like I'm runnin' from the past
f*cking break me, I want you to go fast
You're the only thing I feel, you're the only thing I have
[Chorus]
I'm getting so high, it feels like life just isn't real
Yeah, I took all of this damage, now I don't know how to heal
f*ck me 'til I pass out, yeah, I love the way it feels
f*ck me while I cut myself, I want you for my last meal
Wanna ride it like a pornstar
Go-Go-Goin' so hard
Don't care if you go too far
Use me like I don't matter
God, I'm such a loser
Razor blades stuck in my flesh
Die on my computer
God, I'm such a f*cking mess

[Verse 2]
I never go outside, I just cry and lose my mind
I scream at you, I tried
I tried and you say that it's not enough
And I'll never have your love
But I let you use me, taking out your anger on me
Boy, you abused me, but I guess it was mutual
Now I'm ripping out my cuticles, I'm all alone
Rotting, but I guess that's just the usual
I just wanna get f*cked and lose my mind
Wanna OD on the pills and cut inside
I just wanna feel somethin'
You ruined my f*cking life, I feel nothin'