Av’s Song (Interlude)* lyrics

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[Chorus]
I never thought I'd die alone
I laughed the loudest, who'd have known?
My bedroom is fillin' up with smoke
And Blink still playin' through my phone

[Verse]
I'm rollin' this thing up to face it, maybe it'll help me go to sleep
Lately, I've been feelin' vacant, I really hoped that you would notice me
The money make 'em think they love you, at least I was hopin' it would
I can't put nobody above you, I know you was hopin' I could
Everyone beggin' for somethin', do you really even want it?
My parents really f*ckin' hated each other, and that's who had taught me 'bout lovin'
When mama went missin', we stayed at my aunt's, was sharin' a bed with my cousin
Them nights on the floor was the best, I guess, 'cause we ain't hear nobody fussin'
f*ck it, I reap what I sow, though
I remember havin' no hope
You left me here to do this solo, now I'm countin' this money in SoHo
I remember bein' so broke
Now I can't do a propanol
Need me a check with a 0, 0, 0, 0, then I'd like four more
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