ill hate this body til death lyrics

[Intro: october lies with u]
My body hurts, you're ripping
I wish you ripped me instead
I’ve been watching you, child
You'll think you found some better opposite guy than me
And in a few years you'll rebel against him
Because you need to have your voice
But you don’t want a voice
You just want to f*cking complain about not having a voice
I think about being married to you
And that woman is a stranger to me
I mean, we had a-a child

[Verse 1: october lies with u]
My body hurts, you're ripping
I wish you ripped me instead
Swear your lips looked nicer red
I'll hate this body 'til death
I wake up everyday distressed
Hoping you'll wake up from rest
Swear I'd never forget, your memories are in my head

[Verse 2: wounded]
In my head, you're the worst
I hate the pretty words
That was said, all the lies
"He's a friend," hope you die
How could you do this to me?
Heartbroken like the movies
Now you’re gone, I can’t be free
I guess we weren't meant to be