forgive lyrics

[Verse]
I'm ghosting my hometown friends
And none of it's on purpose
And I let the guilt sink in
I feel like a bad person
And I know it's not my fault
The distance is far too long
But in my defence they don't call me either

[Verse]
I'm picking up bad habits
And building a tolerance
I'm smoking a cigarette
In the backyards of friends of friends
And I've never felt much hell
Like the burn of my Christian guilt
Perpetual sin, it kills all my fire

[Chorus]
And maybe I've tried
All that I could
Maybe I've changed
Or maybe I should
'Cause I'm getting tired
Inside my own skin
So maybe I owe it to myself to forgive
[Verse]
I'm staying up way too late
Forgetting to eat something
And I underestimate
Quite how much is on my plate
'Cause then I'm awake all night
Obsessed with my appetite
And I wonder why I'm sick in the morning

[Chorus]
And maybe I've tried
All that I could
Maybe I've changed
Or maybe I should
'Cause I'm getting tired
Inside my own skin
So maybe I owe it to myself to forgive

[Bridge]
I beat myself up again
Make up some consequence
Knowing that isn't productive or positive
Years of my life I've spent craving repentance
Resenting the fact that I go back
Again and again, and again, and again
And again, and again
And again, and again
Maybe I've tried all that I could (and again, and again)