Spineless lyrics

[Verse 1]
I feel like I'm hanging by my throat
I wanna cut the rope but I just don't know how to cope
They say I got it all but in reality I'm broke
Try to cleanse my soul but I bought the wrong soap
How the hell did this happen? I used to think I was a captain
Now I'm all alone and my stories untold
I'm missin' the innocent citizen I coulda been
Listenin' to Eminem, just a kid with some headphones
Ashamed of my thoughts so I hide 'em all in jokes
I hate my f*ckin' shows, I can’t do this anymore
So I just choke on these f*cked up feelings that I wrote
Waiting for the day I wake up and feel like everybody else
I just want to be myself
I'm already in hell, can't you tell by the smell?
But I am who I am and it is what it is
Limited my abilities so I could live

[Hook 1]
I've lost my mind can't you help me find it?
The Devil gave me a contract and I signed it
All the b*tches and money got me blinded
Can't even sit up anymore, b*tch I'm spineless
And if you find this a little bit amusing
You and ya whole crew can bite on this uzi
You've unleashed the f*ckin' Terror inside me
So when I'm gone move on and don't cry for me
[Verse 2]
I can't feel pain, I can't hide, I can't go outside
I can't look anybody in the eye
I couldn't even cry, back when Greenback died
I try to ease my pain but I always gotta fly
I see no reflection when I look into a mirror
I’m fading into nothing and that ain't even my biggest fear
I just don’t wanna be forgotten
I wanna be a prophet
I want my sh*t played out often
Don’t wanna be anotha body in the earth
And I want every mothaf*cka to have a Terror Reid shirt
And bump my sh*t til' they f*cking ears hurt
Ain’t gonna be a starvin' artist, gone unheard
Want 'em to hear my words
To feel my hurt
To see my dirt
To go berserk
That’s why I always work
But that's why I always hurt man
f*ck it
I'm forever stoic
I guess all I’ll ever be is another dead poet

[Hook 2]
My mind is gone, I don't wanna find it
The Devil gave me a contract and I signed it
All the b*tches and money got me blinded
Can't even sit up anymore, b*tch I'm spineless
And if you find this a little bit amusing
You and ya whole crew can bite on this uzi
You've unleashed the f*ckin' terror inside me
So when I'm gone move on and don't cry for me