(In)dependent lyrics

[Verse 1]
They say you learn and love the chase
And I think I just did
You’re never told it's what’ll break you
And make you feel like sh*t
With no medicine, I cling onto the memories
All I see in the present is
Love only fueled from melodies

[Chorus]
Since you left I've been a mess
I can't be independent
Too many bonds I lead them on
Can't say I learned my lesson
Self sabotage myself when sh*t gets overwhelming
Feels like hell when I can't help it, yeah
I just think that's depressing

[Verse 2]
Future is a blank slate I won't last
Can't help but give affection back
I feel so trapped in times I had, woah
Get every name mixed up and high on oxytocin
Stuck on the thought it's all that matters
I won't ever find my motive
[Chorus]
Since you left I've been a mess
I can't be independent
Too many bonds I lead them on
Can't say I learned my lesson
Self sabotage myself when sh*t gets overwhelming
Feels like hell when I can't help it, yeah
I just think that's depressing

[Post-Chorus]
Mmm, I've tried to learned my lesson
Countless, all the times I've noticed
How hopeless I seem
Still moping, still dream about her
In need of therapy, like
Like I just think that's depressing
Who took my motivation?
Was it you? Was it you?
Far too late think I'm, screwed