Noble Ideal lyrics

[Verse 1]
My mind isn't stable enough to hear people joking
So I just lock myself inside iron mental cages
Throughout my life, I have been through stages
Where I gave up and my mind simply started smoking

[Pre-Chorus]
Should I quit searching for every positive result?
Cause all I hear are voices inside my head
Could I be young again, is it too soon for an adult?
I am still sluggish but they all say ‘Go ahead’

[Chorus]
I keep on waiting, I keep on dreaming
Will I ever be the one they show me in my dreams?
Getting exhausted, gеtting depleted
Is my noblе ideal my potential or it just seems?

[Verse 2]
They always loved pointing out my mistakes
But did they forget that I’m a bit of discerning?
Lord told me not to care about people watching
So, I gotta get my sh*t together, whatever it takes

[Pre-Chorus]
Should I keep on lying to the mirror about my life?
Cause the year’s not enough, I need a 13th month
I feel the ache in my back, all I see is another knife
Can’t get rid of it as they’d been pushing it in for months
[Chorus]
I keep on waiting, I keep on dreaming
Will I ever be the one they show me in my dreams?
Getting exhausted, getting depleted
Is my noble ideal my potential or it just seems?
I keep on dying, I keep on trying
Will I ever be the one they all want me to become?
Getting fed up, getting p*ssed off
Where’s my noble idea, where does it come from?

[Bridge]
The sun will shine if I let this go
But my spirit has never been so hopeless
Where’s my victory? It’s all in a fog
Their silence is so loud, I need to focus
She said, he said, then they forgot
But my memory’s still at its mindless peak
Well, fight or flight, there is no clue
Got damned until hell freezes over

[Chorus]
I keep on waiting, I keep on dreaming
Will I ever be the one they show me in my dreams?
Getting exhausted, getting depleted
Is my noble ideal my potential or it just seems?
I keep on dying, I keep on trying
Will I ever be the one they all want me to become?
Getting fed up, getting p*ssed off
Where’s my noble idea, where does it come from?
[Outro]
Got used to betrayal, that’s what they all do
Got addicted to revenge, that’s what I’d do